New Beginnings

I've felt so sorry for myself. Personally life has been really hard this year, I've let all the things in my life fuel my horrid behavior with food. I've said it a lot, I'm an emotional eater, I eat when I'm happy, sad, mad, and then when I gain the weight I eat cause I'm upset about it. Viscous cycle. I've been reading through my past blogs so upset and honestly really embarrassed. I've always kept it real on here, this journey has never been a straight road for me, and when I found running something changed in me, I found so much joy and confidence it in, and it changed my body in a way that I never thought possible. Then I lost, Since January of 2014 I have struggled, I've gained 20lbs of my original 70 lost and my clothes don't fit. I cried in the dressing room the other day and not tears of joy like the last time I cried in one. I bought a larger size pair of shorts just to make it through the next 10lbs and I felt awful about it. I took a long hard look in the mirror the other day. It's time to get over it, suck it up and push past the mistakes and where I'm at right now. It's time to stop letting the struggles in life control my decisions, in the end I'm the one who controls what I eat and drink. I'm ready and I'm done making excuses. So today I start over for the last time, I'm embarrassed but I'm honest about this, it's never an easy road but I am determined to get back to where I was in 2013. It's time to shake it off, move past it and kick some butt. I've got 23lbs to go and I'm going to use that number as a guideline, I never hit the 130's but I tell you what I felt amazing in the 140's and I want that feeling back. I want those 20 miles a week and I want to look in the mirror and think you did it, now keep it up. I'm ready. I'm excited. I'm in control. Just like I've been training my team with my job....train your brain....speak it and make things happen so here goes. I AM a weight losing, goal achieving, running machine! I will concur this, I will be happy and above all I will love myself. 

Who's coming with me?! 

Weekly Goals

Water Water Water

Run 20 miles

Lose 1-3lbs

Month Goal 

By June 30th (my birthday!) be down at least 10lbs

Main Goal:

Lose 23lbs.... M A I N T A I N and BE HAPPY!